After a horrible last month, I am back and better than ever. STRONGER than ever! I may have lost everything, and by everything I mean my kids, my credit, some friends and even some family. I am not letting this swallow me up. I am not letting the emotional abuse of the past weigh me down. There is no leverage left to pin me with. I may have been down for a while, but I am most certainly not out. I was backed into the corner as far as I could be and I held my ground and now I am coming out swinging. I am taking back what is worth salvaging, cutting the rest loose and moving on. Taking no prisoners. If you aren't with me then you better move out of the way. I am taking out obstacles by whatever means necessary.

One wrong decision can change everything.


My mother drilled that into my brain growing up. It's funny that I applied that only to things I considered wrong or dangerous. It never occurred to me that this was the case in all aspects of life.
Now I can look back on decisions I made and clearly see the right choice vs. the choice I made. Good ol' hindsight!

So that means I've learned my lesson... Right?


Yeah right!

I have learned that sometimes right now, and right months from now, and even right years from now are not guarantees of right forever. Sadly, learning this has made me doubt every turn of my right now. It takes the fun out of moments that should become happy memories, and I really could use some of those after the year I have been having.