My boyfriend's cousin just had a baby. It is the sweetest thing to see him smiling such a huge smile, and being so excited over this tiny human. And just when I think I couldn't possibly love this man more he goes and says... " If I'm this excited over my cousin having a baby... can you imagine?? " OMG! Well yeah! If I wasn't thinking about it before, I sure am now. LOL!

He holds my hand...always...and I never have to reach for his first.
I catch him just staring at me...and not like I'm crazy.
He kisses me...and not just hello or goodbye...even when I'm crying and my nose is all runny.
He pulls me close... and dances with me to no music...except for when he sings to me.
He goes to the Arby's with lemonade...even if it is further away.
He asks me things like " Can we have a garden in our backyard, or do we just want to make it an awesome space for the kids to play?"...just first thing in the morning.
He tells me he loves me...and often.
He gives me his t-shirts to wear...even right off his back... because he knows I love the way he smells.
He opens the door for me.
He fixes my cell phone, tv, laptop...whatever the technology may be that is driving me insane at the moment.
He looks for mice hiding in my truck.
He can make me smile...even when I don't want to.
He offers to make me breakfast every time I stay the night...even though he knows the answer will be no.

I may or may not have consumed entirely too much crap these past few days... Pizza, chinese take-out, girl scout cookies, random candy, and soda. Seriously, I am surprised I have not been sick. I feel like I need to blame it on something so let's go with the fact that I do not have my own place any more. I am more than a little miserable. I swear to be good starting tomorrow. That isn't really me putting off until tomorrow what I could be doing today. I actually should be getting ready for work at this very moment.

Argh! So frustrated. Not living with my boyfriend is so weird and sort of off putting to me. I'm not used to being alone. I'm not good at alone. I need to be able to do alone... but it's so lonely.

It is quarter to 8 on a Sunday morning and I am listening to my little sister and her 4 yr. old daughter scream and fight over brushing the child's hair. They have the whole house awake, and ready to kill them. I didn't sleep well last night and I have to work today. Shut the hell up!

ps... It is shark week and I will kill you

I love my cold because he gave it to me...

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                                     Happy Valentine's Day           

Earliest memories of happiness. I find so much comfort in these pictures. True peace. They inspire me, relax me, remind me to live, to just breathe, to love.

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